One of the amazing things about my pregnancy is that I feel like this is my natural state. This is how I should look, how my tummy should feel, how happy I should be all the time. It all feels like I was waiting for my natural self to take shape and now here it is. I am truly happy in my own skin, which is something I cannot say for big parts of my life.
I feel as though maybe not a lot of women feel this way. I hear a lot of them tell me how fat they felt, how they couldn't wait not to be pregnant anymore, how they didn't look at themselves in a mirror, or couldn't stand having pictures taken. This is not at all how I feel.
I had a woman very early on warn me not to get too big too quickly. I think maybe I had mentioned that I couldn't wait to truly show. She said that I would not like it as much as I thought...that I'd have plenty of time to be "big"...and that I shouldn't eat too much. One thing you learn (or should learn) EARLY in your pregnancy is not to listen to anyone. Well, listen to your midwife. Listen to yourself. She was basically thinking that I would eat myself to death in order to look bigger. Oi. It is true, I did eat more in my first trimester simply because it made the nausea go away, but there was no way I wanted to look bigger by adding fat to my body. I'm a personal trainer for Heaven's sake. I'm not an idiot. I couldn't wait to have that "bowling ball" look that only a little baby can provide.
I'll tell you right now I weight 155 lbs. and I've rarely been happier with my body. I'm completely comfortable telling you that I gained 15 lbs. in the first 3 months and have steadily climbed since then. I grew into my eating so to speak. Believe me, don't let people scare you into thinking that you are a bad person for gaining weight while you are pregnant. Most of it is baby. For me, most of the first trimester was nausea binge weight and now I'm growing with my baby. I don't feel guilty.
I feel great.
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